Posts Tagged ‘college’

It’s been a while… I feel like I never have time.. But, really, it is that I set my expectations for each post higher than it needs to be… I’ll be honest: I write with an audience in mind, sure… My audience is mostly friends & family who like to get updates, with some blogging friends I have made along the way… & there’s an intended audience of those random people out there who just happen to go through similar things as me, who I hope to give hope or insight or just let them know they’re not alone… But, in the end, I write for ME. I write because I feel better when I do… & because it is fun… & because I enjoy the connection & the release… It helps me calm the chaos of my mind. (Thankful #1)

So, with all of that said, I figured I’d sit & write whatever flows out of my head today… & why not make it part of two of my favorite blog hops: Ten Things of Thankful & Finish the Sentence Friday? 😉 I have much for which to be thankful, after all, & all of these things have a ripple effect, flowing into other parts of my life & affecting those I love.

I finished last semester of college with an okay GPA, but I failed one of my four classes. :/ That hit me pretty hard, considering the 4.0 overall GPA I had prior to that… BUT, I have come to terms with it… (Thankful #2) Frankly, I am still damn proud. I managed to pass three classes, maintain an overall honor student status, AND I had a beautiful baby girl during that semester! (Thankful #3) I’d say I am doing okay.

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In many ways, this week has flown by. The boost in confidence that came my way towards the end of last week helped me throw some of my self-criticism aside enough to just be a little happier this week. (Thankful #1) This is not to say that The Bitch didn’t make an appearance — she did; she always does. . . BUT, it is to say that I was able to put her in the background instead of at the forefront, which is good. Hopefully, I can keep this up & it’ll be smooth sailing for a bit. . .

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It’s been a ridiculously long amount of time since I last did a Ten Things of Thankful (TToT) post. Since I treat Calculated Chaos like my online diary, broadcasting all kinds of nastiness to the world, TToT, in my opinion, is a much-needed reprieve from all the negative crap that I need to vent about. It gives me a chance to focus on the good — or even just find the good, at times; I am always grateful for that. (Thankful #1) The handsome husband refers to it as my “My husband is so sexy & handsome & awesome” posts (or something to that effect) because he is one of the “things” I am grateful for the most often. Haha. 😉

It's been a while. . . (Image from morgueFile.com)

It’s been a while. . . (Image from morgueFile.com)

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I have been a Facebook addict for quite some time now. . . I couldn’t tell you when it happened or even when I realized it had happened. . .  But, it  is among the first things I do when I wake up, among the last before going to sleep, & what I find myself mindlessly checking when I am bored or waiting for an appointment. I don’t usually post my meals or cat videos (Yuck! I am not a cat person!), but there are some other telling signs of (&, perhaps, reasons for) my addiction. . .

It is an addiction. (Image from morgueFile.com)

It is an addiction. . . But it’s not necessarily a bad thing. (Image from morgueFile.com)

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Oh. My. Word! It just dawned on me that this is the LAST Ten Things of Thankful post of the year! Say, what?! I know it’s terribly cliché to say so, but time really does fly. . . Where has the year gone??

So, I thought I would go through my year — full of its ups & downs — & find this week’s thankfuls among those. . . Bear with me, this is gonna be a long one! (But I was sure to link up to other posts throughout the year that pertain to this recap, of sorts, so try to have fun with it, will ya?)

Ups & downs. . . Yet full of thankfuls. (Image from morgueFile.com)

                                                Ups & downs. . . Yet full of thankfuls. (Image from morgueFile.com)                                             I am chuckling to myself because in all of my carefulness, I still messed up my TToT numbering. . . HOURS after publishing, I realized that TWO weeks ago, I duplicated the numbers & didn’t catch it. . . This is actually TToT #13. I updated the title, but have decided to leave the “evidence” of this little mess up in this picture & in the URL for this post, as well as last week’s TToT post. Haha. Hope you get a little laugh out of this too! Eh. It is what it is. What can I say? 😉

 

 

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Now that Christmas is pretty much over, I am on to thinking about the new year. . . In one week, on January 1, it will mark two years since the birth of Calculated Chaos. Craziness! It has been light & dark. . . A post-a-day to nothing for months. . . My online journal of sorts. It has to be odd to actually be a follower of this craziness. . . But, for those of you that have found me in my little corner of the cyber world, I thank you for sticking around. . .

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It’s been highly therapeutic for me. . . Not only in the form of having an outlet for the craziness that takes over my brain, but also for the friends that I have made or become closer to as a result of this blog. . .  (more…)

I might be submerged under the cloud that’s been following me around lately, but I still have plenty to be thankful for. . . No frills, but it is there. . .

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