Posts Tagged ‘blogging’

It’s been a while… I feel like I never have time.. But, really, it is that I set my expectations for each post higher than it needs to be… I’ll be honest: I write with an audience in mind, sure… My audience is mostly friends & family who like to get updates, with some blogging friends I have made along the way… & there’s an intended audience of those random people out there who just happen to go through similar things as me, who I hope to give hope or insight or just let them know they’re not alone… But, in the end, I write for ME. I write because I feel better when I do… & because it is fun… & because I enjoy the connection & the release… It helps me calm the chaos of my mind. (Thankful #1)

So, with all of that said, I figured I’d sit & write whatever flows out of my head today… & why not make it part of two of my favorite blog hops: Ten Things of Thankful & Finish the Sentence Friday? 😉 I have much for which to be thankful, after all, & all of these things have a ripple effect, flowing into other parts of my life & affecting those I love.

I finished last semester of college with an okay GPA, but I failed one of my four classes. :/ That hit me pretty hard, considering the 4.0 overall GPA I had prior to that… BUT, I have come to terms with it… (Thankful #2) Frankly, I am still damn proud. I managed to pass three classes, maintain an overall honor student status, AND I had a beautiful baby girl during that semester! (Thankful #3) I’d say I am doing okay.

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In many ways, this week has flown by. The boost in confidence that came my way towards the end of last week helped me throw some of my self-criticism aside enough to just be a little happier this week. (Thankful #1) This is not to say that The Bitch didn’t make an appearance — she did; she always does. . . BUT, it is to say that I was able to put her in the background instead of at the forefront, which is good. Hopefully, I can keep this up & it’ll be smooth sailing for a bit. . .

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I am a woman of contradictions.

Black AND white. 😉 (Yeah. I had to work that in there. LOL. I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t!)

Timid, yet bold.

I like to socialize, but I really am an introverted homebody.

I am enjoying math & being a student, but I really like having an outlet through my writing.

Calculated AND creative. . . (but, lately, I feel more like I’m calculating with not enough creating).

I am a woman of extremes — one extreme or the other. It’s frustrating sometimes. . . But, it’s usually only frustrating when I can’t figure out how to balance all these different parts of me.

With that said, I am in a place in life where I am so, so blessed to be able to figure all of that out. (Thankful #1)

They are a part of me, so I might as well. (Image from morgueFile.com)

They are a part of me, so I might as well. (Image from morgueFile.com)

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I have been a Facebook addict for quite some time now. . . I couldn’t tell you when it happened or even when I realized it had happened. . .  But, it  is among the first things I do when I wake up, among the last before going to sleep, & what I find myself mindlessly checking when I am bored or waiting for an appointment. I don’t usually post my meals or cat videos (Yuck! I am not a cat person!), but there are some other telling signs of (&, perhaps, reasons for) my addiction. . .

It is an addiction. (Image from morgueFile.com)

It is an addiction. . . But it’s not necessarily a bad thing. (Image from morgueFile.com)

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Two years ago, today, was the very first Calculated Chaos post. I had absolutely no idea what I was doing & had absolutely no real vision for this blog. (It is debatable about how much I know what’s going on now either, but that’s beside the point.)

Kinda fun (Image from morgueFile.com)

Kinda fun (Image from morgueFile.com)

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In a little more than 48 hours, we leave 2014 behind & dive into the new year of 2015. It’s a clean slate of sorts for many. . . Just another day for others. . . For me, it is something in between.

I am not usually in the habit of New Year Resolutions. . . But, I am constantly making new goals & monitoring & revising goals that I have already set for myself. . . The bulk of this comes around my birthday (November 16), so the new year is nearly perfect timing to take another look at how those new goals are shaping up & to fine-tune what I really want to be focusing on over the next several months. . .

It is time to focus in on those goals. (Image from morgueFile.com)

It is time to focus in on those goals. (Image from morgueFile.com)

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Oh. My. Word! It just dawned on me that this is the LAST Ten Things of Thankful post of the year! Say, what?! I know it’s terribly cliché to say so, but time really does fly. . . Where has the year gone??

So, I thought I would go through my year — full of its ups & downs — & find this week’s thankfuls among those. . . Bear with me, this is gonna be a long one! (But I was sure to link up to other posts throughout the year that pertain to this recap, of sorts, so try to have fun with it, will ya?)

Ups & downs. . . Yet full of thankfuls. (Image from morgueFile.com)

                                                Ups & downs. . . Yet full of thankfuls. (Image from morgueFile.com)                                             I am chuckling to myself because in all of my carefulness, I still messed up my TToT numbering. . . HOURS after publishing, I realized that TWO weeks ago, I duplicated the numbers & didn’t catch it. . . This is actually TToT #13. I updated the title, but have decided to leave the “evidence” of this little mess up in this picture & in the URL for this post, as well as last week’s TToT post. Haha. Hope you get a little laugh out of this too! Eh. It is what it is. What can I say? 😉

 

 

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