In many ways, this week has flown by. The boost in confidence that came my way towards the end of last week helped me throw some of my self-criticism aside enough to just be a little happier this week. (Thankful #1) This is not to say that The Bitch didn’t make an appearance — she did; she always does. . . BUT, it is to say that I was able to put her in the background instead of at the forefront, which is good. Hopefully, I can keep this up & it’ll be smooth sailing for a bit. . .
I am a woman of contradictions.
Black AND white. 😉 (Yeah. I had to work that in there. LOL. I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t!)
Timid, yet bold.
I like to socialize, but I really am an introverted homebody.
I am enjoying math & being a student, but I really like having an outlet through my writing.
Calculated AND creative. . . (but, lately, I feel more like I’m calculating with not enough creating).
I am a woman of extremes — one extreme or the other. It’s frustrating sometimes. . . But, it’s usually only frustrating when I can’t figure out how to balance all these different parts of me.
With that said, I am in a place in life where I am so, so blessed to be able to figure all of that out. (Thankful #1)
It’s been a ridiculously long amount of time since I last did a Ten Things of Thankful (TToT) post. Since I treat Calculated Chaos like my online diary, broadcasting all kinds of nastiness to the world, TToT, in my opinion, is a much-needed reprieve from all the negative crap that I need to vent about. It gives me a chance to focus on the good — or even just find the good, at times; I am always grateful for that. (Thankful #1) The handsome husband refers to it as my “My husband is so sexy & handsome & awesome” posts (or something to that effect) because he is one of the “things” I am grateful for the most often. Haha. 😉
I might be submerged under the cloud that’s been following me around lately, but I still have plenty to be thankful for. . . No frills, but it is there. . .
One of my best friends posted an article on Facebook a few days ago about how our perception of our bodies differ from what our men think of them. I thought that, while it made some very good points & seemed to be aimed toward helping women have a better self-image, it was rather curious that a woman wrote an article about what men supposedly think. . . SO, after a nudge by that same friend, I sent an email to the handsome husband asking for his take on the article. Of course, the handsome husband had some interesting things to say & lent a personal perspective to the whole topic that I found very comforting.
In the midst of our email conversation about body image & men’s reactions to women’s bodies, he said that men have to learn through trial & error, so I asked, “Does that mean that I should consider myself lucky that we met when we did, rather than sooner?” His response?
When life starts to seem over-bearing, mundane, or just downright too difficult, it is helpful to pause & remember all of the blessings that are present, but sometimes overlooked. One of my favorite sayings is “What you think about, you bring about.” (I don’t remember where I heard that first? Mary Kay, maybe?) Anyway, I firmly believe it is true. . . Whatever you let take over your thoughts will eventually manifest itself in your life. . .
“I can’t do anything right!” Well, eventually, you won’t!
“Today’s going to be just as bad of a day as yesterday. . . Why should I bother?!” Well, with thoughts like that, of course you’re not going to have a good day!
“I am not a domestic person.” This is one I tell myself a lot — & while, to some extent, it is true, I am limiting myself by putting this thought in my brain so frequently. . .
If you had someone following you around, whispering in your ear all the same things you tell yourself on a daily basis, would you let that person keep following you around? I’d think not! So why do we allow it of ourselves? Continue reading “Ten Things of Thankful”
It has been QUITE some time since I even entertained the idea of marriage. I have been content with the thought that if I ever married, I would without-a-doubt be MUCH older. This just goes to show that meeting the perfect person FOR ME has made ALL the difference in the world. I have absolutely no doubts that this is the man who I will spend the rest of my life with. It’s quite a lovely feeling. Continue reading “It’s Not Personal; It’s Practical”