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One Word for the New Year

Posted: December 28, 2016 in Uncategorized

​I have been mulling it over… What ONE word encompasses my aspirations for the new year? “Conquer.” “Dominate.” “YES.” “Empower.” “Balance.” “Compassion.” All good words… But none QUITE cover everything I need while still giving me room to grow as I want…
Then, the handsome husband said it. Such perfection (but I don’t know if I should tell *him* that!). It covers EVERYTHING I need it to cover — AND it lends a sense of irony since we are LEAVING Arizona to move to Washington State! Lolol.
“PHOENIX.”


I think my word will be “phoenix.” I am starting new in SO many things… It is exciting! I get to choose which parts to reinvent & which parts need extra attention… Which I am already good at & which I need to move further out of my comfort zone… School, home, my business… EVERYTHING.
Too cliché?? Be honest. :/

“You’re not good enough & there’s something seriously wrong with you; no matter how hard you try, you’ll always fall short.”

“You’re too caught up in your own thoughts, too emotional, too intense, too numb, too calculated, too lethargic, too everything; you’re hard to love.”

Bitch (more…)

I feel like a horrible, worthless person.

Maybe that’s a slight exaggeration… (But only slight.)

Even after our miscarriage last year, I, somehow, cannot just enjoy this pregnancy.

I am MISERABLE! Seriously.

Baby Girl or Alien Parasite (more…)

It’s been way too long… As a result, I have all kinds of nonsense built up in my brain. You’d think I would practice what I preach & write more often to prevent this from happening, but it is just not that simple, it seems. There are numerous insecurities that come into play… & a struggle to prioritize… &, well, just plain ol’ not feeling like it… But, then again, I don’t feel like doing much on a lot of days, so, yeah…

Anyway, because it has been so long, there’s a lot I want to get out. I won’t promise any kind of cohesiveness today. All I will promise is sincerity & good ol’ brain dump. Maybe I will even get to tie my thoughts into a Ten Things of Thankful post by the time I’m done. We shall see… (I did it! Thankful #1)

Where to begin?

Brain Dump (more…)

I am currently. . .

Wondering: If I will ever actually need a jacket again. . . (more…)

I’ve been feeling a little down lately. . . Not quite in one of my funks yet, but on a downward slope, nonetheless. Ugh. At least I am getting to a point in my life where I can at least recognize that I am slipping, right? (Thankful #1). And, I suppose I should be thankful that my funks (as I like to call my lower points) are not as bad as some you hear about. . . There’s never been a time I have purposefully wanted to harm myself. . . & I have never thought of ending my life. . . I have participated in or initiated some pretty self-destructive behavior of varying degrees at different points in my life — but nothing that would typically be considered downright suicidal. (Thankful #2). (more…)

On Purpose

Welcome to another week of “On Purpose.” If you’re curious about the thought behind this series, click here for its introductory post.

I am detecting a theme here lately. . . I am falling short of my goals. On one hand, I want to be more strict with myself so that I actually accomplish these things. (That is the whole point of this, right?!) On the other hand, I want to celebrate the successes I have so that I am not so hard on myself that I stagnate & quit making any kind of progress. . . (I think this is also why I am getting this published quite a bit later in the day than usual!)

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