Dishes get left in the sink, laundry stays piled up, the floor needs to be swept & mopped. . . It’s not horrific, I suppose, BUT, it IS just an hour or so of good, solid effort to kick the house up to the next notch of cleanliness. What makes it even more frustrating is that it’s on my mind & I want to do it.
Yet I don’t.
The clutter around me, however, is nothing in comparison to the clutter within me.
It’s frightening sometimes.
It’s sad other times.
And, still others, it is infuriating.
But, just because I feel those ways about it doesn’t mean those feelings will change my reality. It just doesn’t.
The clutter around me & the clutter within me are closely related. The more cluttered my mind is, the harder time I have focusing on getting done what needs to get done, so the more cluttered my surroundings get too.
It’s not just the “unsavory” chores that don’t get done; it’s things I want to do that get shoved aside too.
I had a really great idea (thanks to a quick brainstorm with the handsome husband!) for a short story that would follow this week’s Two Shoes Tuesday prompts, but I just couldn’t get the jumble of thoughts in my mind to sort out into something resembling coherence. . . So, I didn’t.
I am lucky I could piece these sentences together — which means the chaos in my head isn’t nearly as destructive as it has been in the past.
It is what it is. . . & part of what it is seems to be me going off on tangents just because I feel the urge. . .
SO, tonight/this morning, instead of writing a short fictional story to share here, & instead of getting a decent word-count in on my work-in-progress, I went off & lost myself in social media. Did you know that until this weekend, I had a Twitter account, but rarely used it? I think, between it & Facebook, my social media needs are MORE than met at this point. 😉 Maybe one day I will get better at Google+, but I doubt it. 😉
So, I will go get one load of dishes done, one load of laundry, & a quick sweep of the kitchen. . . Then, I will pat myself on the back for at least writing this, tell myself I will do better tomorrow, & curl up with my kindle to read the last bit of “An Echo in the Bone” by Diana Gabaldon (because I am hooked on pretty much all things Outlander these days).
This was written to clear the chaos of my mind, but also in participation of Two Shoes Tuesday, whose prompts for the week were “jumble” or “junk.” (It’s like it was meant to be, eh?) Click here to see what others came up with (& don’t forget to feed my social media addiction by clicking the links above to follow me. 😉 )